Me, Backwards

Losing weight and staying in shape has always been a challenge for me.  This time is no different, though I’m starting to feel pretty solid in the habits I’m creating.  Although I’d like it to be faster (always impatient!) I’m also pretty happy with the progress I’ve made - dropping about 30 lbs since the beginning of this year.  I’m eating well but not obsessing about calories or carbs or any other measurement, just trying to make good choices at reasonable portions of quality foods.

I get frustrated sometimes - like this morning when my shoulder was hurting, and I did some running as part of my workout with Noah and I still felt like such a wuss.  I’m sure I’ve made progress, but I don’t feel like it whenever I run - I feel like I’ve got no stamina and the idea of running a 5K (or even a mile!) still seems as far off and unattainable as it did when I first started.  I get frustrated that I can’t seem to find *any* new pants that fit, and all the smaller pants I have i my closet seem to be dress pants or capris.

So I have to remind myself of all the small victories …

• Every time Noah reminds me “That [exercise] would have killed you a few weeks ago.”
• Kicking my own ass every morning that I’m not working out with Noah.
• Running into friends I haven’t seen in a while and hearing them comment on my weight loss.
• Slowly, but surely, fitting back into clothes that I haven’t worn in 3 or 4 years.  (Fortunately my fashion sense is more classic than trendy so it all still works!).
• Feeling my heart rate come back down to normal much faster than it used to.
• Having to arch a lot more at the tunnel a couple weeks ago.
• Seeing my blood pressure register as normal to low-normal rather than high or high-normal.
• Putting up a new profile pic on my Facebook page (a full-body shot of me climbing up in a cockpit at the air museum) and having people comment on how I’m looking thinner.
• This morning - when a client of Noah’s who goes to the Boot Camp class that ends as my session starts said “Wow!  I haven’t seen you in a while and you look really different.”  (It’s probably been 2 months).  Love the random stranger compliments!

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